My dil goes mmm

can't stop noticing the smile in the innocence and the in laughter simplicity. Not senses only my but active listening my skills passive numb also becomes.......

see,
what I mean is.....Not only my senses but my active listening skills also become numb and passive. Was talking to someone and you appeared out of nowhere, took me 3 seconds to realize that the one I was talking to is anticipating some words to be blabbered out of my mouth since I have stopped mid sentence and am staring hopelessly at you. Was so embarrassing. So whats next?

How to stop this helplessness? I really don't know. May be I should spend more time with you. that is something I can't manage given my current commitment to my work.
Don't be so naive, is your work that important? it's just a job dammit......
but I have responsibilities, clients to attend to, projects to complete......
yea, you are the only one who has all this......
Don't be so childish, not is college anymore......

And there starts my internal fight with my other mind.

one thing is sure, I have this restlessness inside me that has come back after a really long time. Something needs to be done. It took me 3 days to get back at being regular boring myself after half a week of indulgence. and m thinking about lifetime.......only those addictions which do not harm your body and are affordable forever should be administered.......is this one of them?

Don't know what to write........which is a hard thing for me....I never write if I am not sure, if it's going to read good.

time to wind up before I spill more beans.....
P.S: the smile is awesome :)

Barter System to Capitalism

Was getting done a shave at my barber, he was a bit rough around the edges, was half occupied in the TV Serial and half in the discussion about a Bandh following the death of some local politician. He almost applied some shaving cream on my lips and I was about to shout at him when he turned around and realized what he had done. Took the cloth nearby and quickly wiped off the cream off, smiled at me sheepishly and mumbled a week sorry. It got me thinking 'what is it that I have that makes me bigger than him?' It was hardly a mistake, and I was almost fuming at him, just because I was going to pay him? but what about the service he was giving to me? It's not like I am paying him for nothing, it's a perfect exchange of Money against Service for which the rate of exchange is been mutually agreed and accepted. Then why do I feel like being superior, Why should I be given the upper edge always?

If you remember the barter system, it was goods against goods or services or any combination of these 2. and the people exchanging these could never treat each other superior or inferior just because of the Good/Service they are catering. i.e. A farmer would always be superior to a milkman...Because he is exchanging a superior product.....Or a fisherman will always be superior to a Shoe seller.....not because of his caste but due to the product.....and if I am not mistaken with money replacing all goods and commodities in these exchange transactions, it should ideally be equivalent to these goods and hence the value of it should be exactly equal to the amount of goods/services you can buy with it. So if I can buy four mangoes with rs. 500 (I am talking about very high quality Hapoos mangoes here :) ) then the bearer of 500 and Hapoos should be equal and be grateful to each other for the transaction. Then why does the counterpart with Money  always becomes the Customer and the other Vendor?

Something to do with the concept of Barter and Capitalism. though they go hand in hand as long as the definitions are considered. Coz both believe in Voluntary exchange of goods/service or Money. To bring more practicality and overcome the shortcomings of Barter, money was introduced. It represented Value and became very standard among transactions. But it did not remain as just a substitute for value exchange, it gained it's own place in the economy and people's lives. It became the very source of Power and started to shake the very empires that invented it and the rest is history as they say.

My Take: It's still barter that you are doing when you are getting a service or buying a product. The benefit is mutual and so should be your behaviour with the vendor. If he/she is polite to you, you can at least try not to be rude. So next time you go shopping Barter, don't Banter :)

Bad Friendship day Treat

The day was awe-full. People made fun of him, he is fine with few jokes and laughs from dear ones, but this was different....some of them were desperately passing on comments to seek revenge. That too for some work related issues. It was a fake smile he was wearing just to make sure the mood is not spoiled and the one pulling his leg should not feel succeeded.
Hell of a friendship day treat.

पारिजातकाचा सडा

आणि अचानक ती दरवाज्यात आली, तिचं ते निरागस हसू आज कित्येक वर्षांनी परत अनुभवलं, ते घारे डोळे आणि गोमटा चेहरा....असं वाटलं कि पहाटेच्या वेळी छान अंगणात प्राजक्ताच्या फुलांचा सडा पडलाय....माझ्या चेहऱ्यावर सुद्धा हसू आलं...आम्ही चार पाच जण होतो..नेहमीचेच मित्र...आणि त्यात आई नक्की नव्हती...मग आईचा आवाज कुठून येतोय?.....संदीप....संदीप उठ ७ वाजले, ऑफिस ला उशीर होईल बघ....

उठलो, स्वतःशीच हसलो.....कधीकधी आपला मन आपल्याला एकदम ४-६ वर्ष मागे घेऊन जातं....ते दाखवतं जे आपल्याला खूप पूर्वी हवं असतं आणि जगण्याच्या धामधुमीत आपण ते मिळालं नाही म्हणून ते मिळणार नाही असं समजून पुढे गेलेलो असतो पण मन चोर त्याच्या कुठल्याश्या कोपऱ्यात त्या आठवणी जपून ठेवतं आणि एखाद्या निरागस क्षणी आपल्याला flashback मध्ये घेऊन जातं....

खरं तर आता तीही तसं निरागस खळखळून हसत नाही, वयात आल्यमुळे तो अल्लड पणा जावून तिथे एक वेगळाच संकोच आलाय....मुलीचं रुपांतर एका स्त्री मध्ये होतंय....पण ह्या सगळ्यात मी कुठे हरवलोय माहित नाही....मी तिच्या आयुष्यात कधी नव्हतोच ....मला ती आवडायची (कि अजूनही?) ते तिला सोडून सगळ्यांना माहित होतं (कदाचित तिलाही, पण कधी तिनी ते दाखवलं नाही आणि मी विचारलं नाही)...आम्ही नेहमीच मित्रांचे मित्र राहिलो....

पण मग आच अचानक हे पुन्हा काय.....कि मी अजूनही तिच्याच ....साठे सकाळचे ८ वाजलेत, आईनी १ तासापूर्वी उठवलं होतं ऑफिस ची तयारी करायला...आता आपण कॉलेज मध्ये नाही आहात....चला....

नात्यांना नावं न दिलेलीच बरी असतात....नंतर...

Illusion

It could be so simple. You just need to tell me that it’s not possible and never going to happen…but you chose to play games with me. 1 moment it’s all dark, pitch black and before my eyes could adjust and my mind could start mourning there is a small ray of hope….1 chasing the one chasing another…….clumsy and filmy……can’t complain coz I have something in hand and can’t enjoy coz I know you can take it away any moment.

Dil Chahta Hai

Kadhichi Flight ahe? udya, 5.30...zali sagali tayari.....poat sutlay tuza, tikde suit hoshil ekdam...parat kadhi yenar.....baghu........chal khali sodayla yeto tula........gadivar basun to nighun gela......mage rahilela ek dusryala mhanala, "Asech sagle vikhurtat"......ugachach jara dolyancha kada olavlyasarkha vatla.....

Varsha zala bhetun.....tyachi amchya group madhlya eka tichyashi goshta jamleli......mala adhipasun mahiti....mag sagalyanpasun lapvun thode divas ani saglyanna sangun thode divas ase bhetnare te dogha....jasa tyanna bhetayla occasions kami padaychi tashich amhala bhetayla kahi lagaychich nahit...carrom, trek, movie, misal pav party, kapde kharedi, kinva nakyavar bhetun nustya gappa......

Tyancha jamlela jevha tyanni mala sangitlela tevha mi busmadhe hoto....aajubajuche char jan javal javal udalech hote maza gongat aikun.....divasbhar kamat man lagla nahi....kadhi ekda bhetun wish kartoy asa zala.....saral jaun tyala uchalala.....doghanchya cheharyvaracha aanand baghanysarkha hota....ani me khush ahe mahnun dogha anakhin khush hote....

Vel patapat jato.....asach ek mitra ani maze don khas mitra, amhi swatala 'Fantastic Four' Mhanaycho/Mhanto.....ata ekmekachi tonda baghayla facebook var yava lagta.....Career, Job, Education, Lagna....kahi na kahi madhe yetach....mansa bhetat tich wegli honyasathi......udya ek jatoy ani F4 madhla ek parat yetoy.... aaj hyachi send off party zali.......chala ata tyachi welcome party karuya.......
Ek friend college madhe astana mala mhanaychi, aapan sagle eka mothya gharat rahuya, kinca ek chotishi building aapli.....tu, me , ha , to........tichi list sampat navhti.......

Kabhi na bitay chamkile din.....humna rahe kabhi yaro ke bin.........zagamate hai zilmilate hai apne raste.........

Mind Games

Mind can refresh/settle itself in a nanosecond while you roam around half the world searching for a satisfactory answer to it's quests and come back empty handed....only to find that it has indulged itself in observing something as simple as a kid playing in the sand, or sheep licking her baby, or spinning of a wheel in the mud to produce 'matkas'...... it's beautiful to realize the power of your mind.....keep thinking, don't let your mind play with you, play with it :)